Date:	2005-08-12 13:50
Subject:	hehe...
Security:	Public
Mood:	embarrassed
Music:	Sugar we're going down

OMG!!!... I am such a LOSER! today i went skating and in between sessions i went outside to eat. as i was walking back in the hottest guy ran by and smiled at me. I turned to smile and say hi and when i turned back around I WALKED RIGHT INTO A TREE!!!... He saw me and laughed! That was soooo embarassing!

Date:	2005-08-08 14:20
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	pissed off
Music:	not in the mood

Do you know what it's like to watch someone you love being helplessly beaten by four other guys twice his size? Do you know what it's like to stand there as this is happening knowing that there is nothing you can do about it? Nothing you can possibly do to help him. We'll i honestly hope not b/c it's absolutley the worst feeling in the world! Can i just say something to all the guys who think it's impressive to get drunk and purposly hurt other people...IT'S NOT IMPRESSING ANYONE BUT YOURSELVES! all you're dong is making your selfs look bad. No girls are really impressed by it. In fact it's a big turn off. I mean honestly are you all that insecure with yourselves that you need to hurt other people to make yourself feel bigger? I mean how stupid is that? Everyone needs to stop iming me saying what a pussy he is and that he cant fight!...especially the people who weren't even there. He was out numbered your stupid ass had all your friends. He was alone. Who does that? he didnt do anything to you! and that doesnt make him a pussy! That makes him the bigger person! He didnt want to fight you! who the fuck cares. He didnt think you were worth his time! and that made u feel stupid! we'll you should! you dumbass! you're the fucking pussy! I bet you feel real proud of yourself dont you! yeah u got him! arent you soooo cool! u and four of your friends beat someone half your size. that makes you real big huh? haha...FUCK YOU!

Date:	2005-08-04 20:31
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	annoyed
Music:	simple plan

I went to get nick on friday after skating. We went to Lisa's house and rented some movies and ordered chinese food. It was fun but kinda boring. Steven Parker came and drove me to vince's b/c vince was sick. I spent the night at his house. Before i went to sleep he kissed me on my forhead good night. That made me feel special. The next morning he woke me up. We watched t.v and he took me home at around 1. I went to my grandparents house for my uncle buddy's birthday. I got really sick so my dad took me home. I went to sleep around 10...but vince kept drunk calling me. He called about four times. the last call was at like 2am. Each time he called me it was to say he was going to sleep. lol and then 20 min later he was going to sleep again. hehe... A few days ago i went with vince to Patrick's house. We got drunk and vince was kinda mean to me. He said some really hurtful stuff. but i dont think he meant it...he was drunk...all the same though it's still bothering me. o well. That night my mom came to get me. She got pissed at me and took me to the police station. Kevin came to pick me up. ehhhh.....bad night!

Date:	2005-08-04 20:17
Subject:	hehe...
Security:	Public
Mood:	aggravated
Music:	Fall out boy

The past few days have been wierd. I went with Kevin to this party. His parents we're completely trashed. his sister introduced me to some of his family as his girlfriend. That made me uncomferetable. I didnt know what to say. I only like kevin as a friend. Anyway his dad was sooo drunk he sat down next to me and rubbed his hand on my leg. It was harmless but wierd.lol...After the party i went back to kevins for a while. We watched Freddie vs. Jason and then he took me home. On Sunday my dad drove me to get vince from his crab party thing. We went to see a movie. The way he was acting confused me. We saw the Devil's Rejects. Vince saw Kathy right before the movie started. i told him to go say hi but we ended up all siting together. I was kinda pissed. Kathy is vinces ex girlfriend and this was the first time i saw vince since we broke up. I was so uncomferetable. Anyway after the movie which by the way was horrible, i started crying...i didnt mean to i just felt so let down. By vince of all people. He came back to my house. We sat on the steps outside and talked for a while. Then derek came to get him. The next day he came over to my house. It was the first time he's ever been inside my house. He got mad at me because i didnt have a picture of him up on my wall. It wasnt my fault i didnt have a picture of him. We walked up to the shopping center and got some sodas and candy. We ran into nick, mike, noah, and steven parker. Then we went back to my house and watched the terminal. He came over again the next day. We went to Kenny's house. We were so bored. After a while we started drinking. Vince got mad at me because i told him i met someone. HE TOLD ME TOO!!! He got so mad that he left. Kenny took me to find him. He walked to patuxent middle. Then we went back to my house. we talked for a few hours and then took him home.

Date:	2005-07-22 14:42
Subject:	hehe...
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful
Music:	falalalala lala la la

J'ai le jour de wierdest jamais ! Kevin et Mike sont venus et nous sommes allés courir mais je suis fatigué sooo rapidement. Je pense qu'il vraiment les a ennuyés. De toute façon après que nous nous sommes assis dans mon entrée de garage pour d'une heure essaie de penser de quelque chose pour faire. Nous sommes allés au cinéma mais alors le micro l'a décidé le besoin de didnt pour voir un film si. ..we est allé obtenir quelque nourriture. Après ce micro a pris nous soutient à ma maison et alors il part. Kevin et je me suis assis sur le trottoir et parlé un peu alors nous avons marché au centre commercial. nous avons traîné un peu et il a obtenu quelque ciggerettes. Alors nous nous sommes assis et parlé pour une heure plus ou moins avant que nous ayons ayons marché de retour à la maison. Il part à de 1am. Maintenant im lui parlant sur l'ordinateur. Il est vraiment drôle et je suis content qu'il est mon ami !

Date:	2005-07-22 14:35
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm
Music:	Round here

Step out the front door like a ghost
into the fog where no one notices
the contrast of white on white.
And in between the moon and you
the angels get a better view
of the crumbling difference between wrong and right.
I walk in the air between the rain
through myself and back again
Where? I don't know
Maria says she's dying
through the door I hear her crying
Why? I don't know

Round here we always stand up straight
Round here something radiates
Maria came from Nashville with a suitcase in her hand
she said she'd like to meet a boy who looks like Elvis
and she walks along the edge of where the ocean meets the land
just like she's walking on a wire in the circus
she parks her car outside of my house
takes her clothes off
says she's close to understanding Jesus
she knows she's more than just a little misunderstood
she has trouble acting normal when she's nervous

Round here we're carving out our names
Round here we all look the same
Round here we talk just like lions
But we sacrifice like lambs
Round here she's slipping through my hands
Sleeping children better run like the wind
out of the lightning dream
Mama's little baby better get herself in
out of the lightning
She says "it's only in my head"
She says "Shhh I know it's only in my head"
But the girl on the car in the parking lot
says "Man you should try to take a shot
can't you see my walls are crumbling?"
Then she looks up at the building
and says she's thinking of jumping
She says she's tired of life
she must be tired of something
Round here she's always on my mind
Round here hey man got lots of time
Round here we're never sent to bed early
and nobody makes us wait
Round here we stay up very, very, very, very late
I can't see nothing.. nothing round here
will you catch if I'm falling
will you catch me if I'm falling
will you catch me cause I'm falling down on you
I said I'm under the gun around here
I'm innocent I'm under the gun around here
and I can't see nothing

Date:	2005-07-21 03:02
Subject:	eeeehhhh...
Security:	Public
Mood:	depressed
Music:	Green Day

I remember the day like yesterday
When i gave you all of my heart.
You promised me forever,
But your promise fell apart.
You were always there to take care of me.
To take away my fears.
But now i sit alone without you,
To wipe away my tears.
<3 Vince

Date:	2005-07-21 02:23
Subject:	......
Security:	Public
Mood:	accomplished
Music:	simple plan

Yeah sooo...the past few weeks have been rough. Vince and i broke up. He wants to be friends. i'm really confused by him right now. anyway i learned that i should never trust anyone especially girls. One of my "friends" decided to take some of my personal letters and journals and read them to people at a party. I wouldnt even do that to someone i hate. It's whatever though. Vince tryed to warn me but...stupid me didnt listen. Thats what i get right!?! I trust people too much and i always end up getting screwed over. So i decided that from now on i'm just not talking about anyone to anyone. And if someone tells me something about someone else im not going to believe it unless i hear it from them myself. and i'm not telling anyone my buisness or anything personal bc i cant trust ANYONE! well except for one person and he knows who he is. the other day on the phone he told me that i was never gonna learn. he said how many times do people have to screw u over b4 u realize u put too much trust into them. He's completely right. And im done with being screwed over. Fuck that! dkfjghkgj;hdsakljgas. i never say anything and u kno usually i would forgive her for what she did but not anymore. I'm not just gonna let people walk all over me, especially not her. She was supposed to be my friend and it really hurts that she would do something like that. but u kno her loss. I'm done!

Date:	2005-06-28 09:47
Subject:	ghjhgjhkjh....
Security:	Public
Mood:	blah
Music:	counting crows

She sat right down on the sofa
Says where have you been?
I been waiting for you
Cause last night
I had something so good
These days get so long
and I got nothing to do
I been hanginaround
this town on the corner
I been bummin' around
this old town so long
I been hanginaround
this town on the corner
I been bummin' around
this old town for way too long
We spend all day getting sober
just hiding from daylight
watching tv
We just look a lot better in the blue light
Well you know I gotta get out
Well I'm stuck so tight weighed by the chains that keep me
I been hanginaround
this town on the corner
I been bummin' around
this old town so long
I been hanginaround
this town on the corner
I been bummin' around
this old town for way too long
This girl listens to the band play
She says where have you been?
I been lying right here on the floor
right here on the floor
Well I got all this time to be waiting
for what is mine
to be hating
what I am
after the love has faded
Hanginaround this town on a corner
I been bummin' around this old town so long
I been hanginaround this town on a corner
I been bummin' around this old town for way way way way way too long
way way way way too long
way way way way too long
way way way way too long
oh my god i say
get up real early in the morning
don't get up 'till the afternoon
Son, I see the day is dawning?
she said well get up get dressed get out
It's almost half past noon?

Date:	2005-06-28 09:26
Subject:	W-T-F
Security:	Public
Mood:	annoyed
Music:	The dryer

Crystal, josh, vince, and i went to the beach this past weekend. Josh and vince came and spent the night at crystals house the night before. We left at about 9am and got there at 11. Vince bought me TACO BELL!!!... I fuckin love him! Anyway, we went to the beach and got in the water for a few minutes. It was really nice. Then we went and the boys attempted to make hamburgers. Ashley was at the beach so we met up with her. We drank while the boys were tryin to cook. By the time they got back with mcdonalds we were pretty drunk. Crystal and Ashley went off and i stayed with vince. They called and we were supposed to go find them but that didnt happen. So they met some random guys and stayed at their place. They had a lot of fun! Josh was pissed! The next day...Crystal and ashley came back and Josh took ashley and me to breakfast. It was soooo good! When we got back we went to c my friend timmy who was down there with his family. We stayed for about an hour then we went back to pack all our stuff. Ashley, crystal, and i went to walk on the board walk and played in the castles! lol! Crystal got harassed by this palm tree! lol! When we got back to the room josh was drunk and bein pretty stupid. We left at around 6:30 and got home at 11! We got lost trying to get to Glen Burnie so ashley could get her phone. We almost ran out of gas. We went back to vinces and ashley and crystal went to chill with derek and nick and i stayed with vince. I got really sick! Blah!... last night i stayed at vinces too. He drove me home at about 6 this morning. My mom came to pick me up to go skating and she randomly out of no where decided to kick me out. I was at this random ass gas station with all these black guys and mexicans screaming at me and poking me trying to take my shit. Finally crystal found me and took me home. I was SOOOOOOOOO scared!!!...

Date:	2005-06-22 14:02
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused
Music:	Incubus

So i moved out of my house. I live with Crystal. We've been goin out every night and if we come back it's not until early in the morning. Then i have to get up at 7 to go skating! I am sooo tired! Vince locked Crystals keys in her car so we had to sleep at his house. We were all soooo drunk! The next morning we went with Vince to work and took his car home. We got her spair key and had to drive all the way back to get her car. We had to babysit in reisters town and stupid me decided to take vinces car. I thought that he didnt have a way to get his car and i didnt know how he was gonna get home from work. I was gonna go pick him up. Crystal had to drive seperatly bc we couldnt both leave the baby and how would we get home. anyway after i got there i realized i had no way of getting home. whatever. So i went to pick him up. On my way i dropped something and completly drove off the road and almost hit a pole. Scariest thing ever! Vince saw me too. lol! Now he thinks im a crazy driver. lol! I might go to the beach this weekend with crystal, josh, and vince. I LOVE VINCE!!!...

Date:	2005-06-20 18:57
Subject:	<3
Security:	Public
Mood:	loved
Music:	whatever

<3VINCE :)

Date:	2005-06-19 11:37
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	exhausted
Music:	METALLICA

TO EVERYONE IF I CALLED YOU AT ANYTIME IN THE PAST THREE DAYS I AM SOOOO INCREDIBLY SORRY. I HAD NO CLUE WHAT I WAS SAYING!

Date:	2005-06-14 19:58
Subject:	:)
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy
Music:	Mandy Moore

So i still haven't been home. It's tuesday and i'm still at Crystals. I've been here since last wednesday. I started talking to Vince again. I hadn't seen him in a while. The past week we've been driving like 45 min just to see him and and his friend Derik. Crystal and Derik are always together and i'm all alone. Last night we went to Vinces with Kristen and amanda. We were there until 1am. I went bc i wanted to talk to him but instead i made myself look likesuch idiot He asked me if there was something i wanted to tell him and i looked at him and blushed. I couldnt say anything. Who does that! Oh well after we left i called him and tryed to tell him again but failed. He told me for me. He was like are you trying to tell me you like me? How embarassing! Whatever. he said he liked me to! :) So i'm happy.

Date:	2005-06-09 12:53
Subject:	Meep...Meep...
Security:	Public
Mood:	crappy
Music:	No music huge headache

I feel soooo incredibly sick today! Never drink on an empty stomach. blllaaaahhh... Had fun last night. Went with Crystal and her friend to meet Vince,Derik, and Aaron. Went to Derik's house and got drunk. Fell all over the place. Looked like a dumbass. Crystal bit my lip Soooooo HARD!!!...We stayed at Derik's house and went to sleep at 3am. Then Crystal wakes me up at like 9 bc she wanted to go to six flags. I AM SOOO TIRED!!!